Intimacy.

Sort of got back to reading over the last week of my LAST WINTER BREAK! I'm not a big reader, but a part of me wishes! Anyway I started reading Daring To Draw Near over the summer but never finished it and picked it up again. I was reading the chapter on Job and intimacy and it was saying how people aim for intimacy, but end up with its counterfeit, familiarity. Here's a little excerpt..

"For intimacy involves a respectful listening and a respectful hearing. It also involves being humble enough to share the secrets of your heart, provided you know that in doing so you will help the one you share with and not burden him. We fail because we do not respect and do not reverence the handiwork of God in the person with whom we seek intimacy."

As I started to think about intimacy vs. familiarity in the relationships in my life the more I realized how true it is. I kind of pride myself in my listening..mainly cause I'm bad with advice/small talk/giving input etc etc. When I do have something to say I don't feel comfortable to come out and say it right away. I wait it out for an opportune moment and if that timing doesn't come, depending on the urgency of whatever I have to say I might just keep it to myself. Sometimes all I want to hear is "How are you doing?" and go beyond whatever answer I give. I'm afraid to be completely honest and to give an honest answer the first time around cause I'm scared of being a burden. akjsd;aiudelkxlkajhxieuyrcn. I forgot what I wanted to say. I'm tired.