A little dented.

I've been very happy for the past day or two. I think I might have a small crush on someone? I don't exactly know. After my last boyfriend I started to question my feelings. When it ended I was mad at myself because I stayed with him much longer than I should have. I lost feelings but I loved being in a relationship so I thought I loved him. It was my first relationship and my heart was too young and inexperienced. I thought I knew what I wanted. I thought I knew what I liked and loved and needed. No siree. I was over him while I was with him so I was just happy to be single again. Didn't go through any heartaches just confusion which hit me a year later. For about a year I wasn't even interested in being in another relationships. I had "targets" that were just good for looking at. Then this a couple weeks ago I realized that whenever I was about to meet new people the first thing that popped into my head was "will I meet someone who could possibly be my next boyfriend?" So after I had my little epiphany I had to make myself avoid that kind of thinking.

I might like someone right now. I don't know him that much and just recently met him. And I never really thought about it because I honestly didn't see him in that way. I was introduced to him as the guy who will crack you up. I just thought he was a jokester. I've been ..I wouldn't say talking but we've been messaging each other the past week once a day and I sort of had the feeling we were being more than friendly? I can't say if it falls under flirting cause I don't really know what counts as flirting but I'd like to think it's more than just friends. But I'm wondering if I like him or if I just want to be in a relationship. I'll be seeing him tomorrow. I last saw him two weeks ago. I've been looking forward to it but I'm anxious. I'm not very subtle when I'm interested in someone. My cheeks give out on me. Well I'll just have to see how things turn out tomorrow to see what this feeling is I'm feeling.